starcraft and nerds... oh what the.

So school has started. Yes. It has. In fact, it has been going on for quite some time now, and I still haven't quite gotten used to it. Midterms are creeping over the horizon, like malicious zombies advancing steadily on a helpless human victim. Yum. I've been thinking about zombies a lot lately. They invade my dreams frequently; it isn't so much frightening as it is thought provoking. I mean, how would I act in a post-nuclear zombie apocalypse? Would I survive? If I turned into a zombie, would I be conscious of myself as I feverishly tore flesh from struggling, living human bodies? I can't imagine. Perhaps becoming a zombie would have the prerequisite of death. But I digress.

Anyway, school has been proceeding, as planned, for about a month and a half now. Classes are anything but interesting, in fact, I really don't feel like attending any of the lectures. The horrifying fact that each lecture costs about a hundred bucks each, however, alarmingly sets my exhausted body into motion every morning. And yet, I've still managed to miss about four lectures. Four! That's four hundred dollars. I could have bought an Xbox 360 and Rock Band with that money! Now that pisses me off. Of course, I missed those classes before I really got a firm grasp on the monetary perspective of attending a ridiculously over priced University.

As I'm typing this blog, I'm staring at a book. It has a lot of hard words. Can you guess what it is that I'm reading? No, silly, not Harry Potter, but "Word Smart: Building an Educated Vocabulary" by the Princeton Review! Yeah, I'm trying to expand my English vocabulary because lately I've noticed that I can't quite express myself sufficiently, in text or in speech. In fact, the way I'm writing these days has become excessively... oh how should I say it? RETARDED. A whole summer of unintelligible instant messaging conversations with Hyung Keun Oh has effectively crippled my ability to communicate with other human beings via words. Here is an example of one of our more profound and deep conversations... and yes, this is about as comprehensible as it ever got.

j0mzchoi (오후 11:00:41): haiz
j0mzchoi (오후 11:00:43): yao
j0mzchoi (오후 11:00:49): .......
j0mzchoi (오후 11:00:50): YAO
gun hk (오후 11:00:51): H
gun hk (오후 11:00:51): a
gun hk (오후 11:00:51): I
gun hk (오후 11:00:52): ?
gun hk (오후 11:00:54): zzzzzzzzzzz
gun hk (오후 11:00:56): zzzㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
j0mzchoi (오후 11:00:58): ez
gun hk (오후 11:00:58): zzzzzzzㅋㅋㅋzzzzzzz
j0mzchoi (오후 11:00:59): ...
j0mzchoi (오후 11:01:05): c.rilly gewd?
j0mzchoi (오후 11:01:11): ...............
gun hk (오후 11:01:11): LOL
gun hk (오후 11:01:13): C.RiLLY
j0mzchoi (오후 11:01:16): CRILLY
j0mzchoi (오후 11:01:18): O_O
j0mzchoi (오후 11:01:28): YO
j0mzchoi (오후 11:01:28): OMG
j0mzchoi (오후 11:01:33): DID YOU WATCH HIS GAME YET??
j0mzchoi (오후 11:01:38): SEA.REALLY
j0mzchoi (오후 11:01:40): AOMOWMOMMO
j0mzchoi (오후 11:01:42): AWMGZZZZZZZZZZZZz
j0mzchoi (오후 11:01:45): GAWDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
j0mzchoi (오후 11:01:48): HI R TEH GAWDZ
gun hk (오후 11:01:51): noonnonon
gun hk (오후 11:01:52): no streams
gun hk (오후 11:01:53): soRRY
j0mzchoi (오후 11:01:55): ...
j0mzchoi (오후 11:01:56): ziziyO

Hahahahahaha. That shit cracks me up. Oh, but anyway... What have I been up to since I graduated from high school? Well, I've stayed up to watch the sun rise. Except, you can't see the sunrise in the city so... I don't know what that was for. It was incredibly fun, nonetheless ;)

I feel like I need to be writing more intelligently. Maybe I'll throw in a few "smart" words every so often. But then again, what's the point? I mean, who's actually going to spend the time looking up SAT words? I mean... HEGEMONY. Bet you don't know what THAT means, now do you?

Things haven't changed much since high school. Going to class still sucks. The teachers, oops, I mean, "professors", are all boring. The homework... er... "assignments" are still annoying as hell, and I for the sake of me cannot figure out how in the world ten hours a week of classes can possibly amount to fifty grand a year. That is just totally BOLLOCKS! I'm starting to think that university tuition is just a widely accepted form of scamming the shit out of people. I mean, it's not like I'm really learning anything useful. And what is it with NYU renaming all of its classes and making them sound so interesting and sophisticated? I mean, what the shit could "Conversations of the West: Antiquity and Renaissance" possibly mean? And "Writing the Essay" for an obvious English class. Ooh, wow, interesting! NOT. English 101 wants to be something else (Writing the Essay? Come on...) but fails miserably. One point of of ten. Epic fail.

I've met a lot of new people, though. Friendly encounters with other people always leave me with a warm fuzzy feeling. However, the sad truth is: I despise fuzzy things. Don't be mistaken, I'm no misanthrope. I'm just not exactly a philanthropist. It's really burdensome, meeting new people, that is. Even though it seems like an appropriate action, whenever I cross paths with an unknown person (seatmates, usually), I don't have the will or audacity to exchange a greeting. Ultimately, I can't judge whether it's appropriate or not. It's just troublesome. A myriad of questions deluge my thoughts. Would it be weird to say hi and introduce myself? Would it be strange to not say anything at all? What will that person think of me? Is it worth it? Is it worth delving past the apathetic veneer of physicality in order to really get to know a person? Will it hurt me? Will it make me stronger? What can I learn; what can I miss?

It's the saddest thing in the world, knowing that in one day, you will see countless people you will never see again...

"Hi, I'm James. Nice to meet you. How are you doing today?"

Smash the walls of apathy. Fuck yeah.